agnes, again. the delicate bizarreries of our four-year-old girl: you do not know my finger's name, she sings in the bathtub. pinching my nose, plucking my pies, pine needles in her hair, a stream of poetic nonsense, stubborn and muddy-toed. gold ringlets and a terrifying knack for grudge in the long run, yet as changing as clouds in spring magpieing one, two, five, gingersnaps in her mouth. marbles snail shells, petals in her pockets, stories of sky-walking – and this evening, an important query: what is the smell of my heart? silence: I watch her moonlit face, delight that I live to see grandmother reborn with sticky little hands.
Mimine cloud-shaped night-light, we read the clock in retrospect: I discover an earlier blueprint of grandma’s hands in yours. when I happened, she was glasses, hair dye, teacups, long past sixty-four: I had missed all of her previous hands: her twenty-something hands, restless little bird wings, soft still, and too trusting. her forty-something hands, busy bathing babies, folding napkins, stirring tomato soup. you scald before you peel. I only knew of her old hands, pin pokes and calluses, sewing pretty, uncomfortable dresses. now, you born with the same prints, exactly. easily recognisable despite the sudden subtraction of six decades – my tender miniature of a lioness. In French, “mimine” is an affectionate term used to refer to little children’s hands.
Beeper Peddle is a writer and healer living on the East Coast. She lives with her partner and their beloved soul puppy. Beeper writes about sorrows, lies, and deep loves. When you read her work, you will dip down into her heart and end up in all manner of body parts. Should you find yourself reflected in these words, it is merely coincidence; however, it does not surprise her you share the same heart. Find her at bethpeddle.com and @beeperpeddle on Twitter and Instagram
Lorelei Bacht (she/they) successfully escaped grey skies and red buses to live and write somewhere in the monsoon forest. Their recent writing has appeared and/or is forthcoming in After the Pause, Harpy Hybrid Review, The Inflectionist Review, Sinking City, SWWIM, and elsewhere. They are also on Instagram: @lorelei.bacht.writer and on Twitter @bachtlorelei.