a portrait of wonder woman as a walk of shame | poetry by JoAnna Brooker

a portrait of wonder woman as a walk of shame

armor forged from biker shorts & a tube skirt from Forever 21, stitched stars & a haphazard gold trim with shaky hands, a tiara wrapped in tinfoil, & acrylic painted shoes two sizes too small, red & white like a diner. Superpower, read the Instagram caption. 

that fall I gulp down jungle juice in every frat house in the fort, claw for red eyes & sweaty fists to piece together the broken glass in my hips. hunt for the girl I was before I met the man with the phoenix tattoo. fill the void, wipe virginity from memory, chug the flask of tequila & feel Invincible. 

stumble through sangria on a sticky bathroom floor, collapse down the shower drain. crowd fizzy & dark like jack & coke. be carried out to chants of Wonder Woman down! & puke out the window of the pledge’s Infiniti. be carried up to the 7th floor of a high rise by 2 faceless men, awake at 4 am, on a loveseat with a dead Iphone, to hurl up bright orange regret into the sink. 

at 11am November 1st, in rags of the night before, eyes smeared like grief, I walk home. I make it halfway down the strip before the honking flips my stomach like a keg stand. eyes on the concrete, hands crossed over my chest like a saint, my red Chevrolet Blazer is dead at the top of the hill. I call a man I ghosted to jump me off. & he laughs & I swallow my lips like shame & I have never felt so weak.

Beeper Peddle is a writer and healer living on the East Coast. She lives with her partner and their beloved soul puppy. Beeper writes about sorrows, lies, and deep loves. When you read her work, you will dip down into her heart and end up in all manner of body parts. Should you find yourself reflected in these words, it is merely coincidence; however, it does not surprise her you share the same heart. Find her at bethpeddle.com and @beeperpeddle on Twitter and Instagram

JoAnna Brooker is a graduate from the University of Tennessee, where she studied Journalism & English. They are currently the Sundress Academy for the Arts Writer in Residence, & their work has been featured in Lunch Ticket, Figure 1, Jet Fuel Review, & on stage as a comic. She can be found on all social media platforms @cupofjoanna.